I'm Going Mad

Maybe I am just going mad
I miss something that I never had
I miss a love that never happened
Maybe I'm just really mad
Nothing never ever happened between us
Never dated 
Never compromise
But I really don't know how I miss so much us,
If it never happened
We never turned us
But I miss you so much 
So much...
Maybe I had just dreamed about everything
Maybe I'm just living a nightmare
Where I don't remember the real you
But just the you in my mind
I created you in my mind based on a platonic love
And now I miss so much
But your real you it's not the one I need
And I don't know what to do 
I'm going mad.